Fat Girls Can't Run, Can They? Part 1

Last Sunday I actually wanted to run. I am positive that is not a feeling I have ever had before. I have wanted to run to something, away from something, behind something - you get the picture- but never have I wanted to run for the simple reason of just running to run.

I am a fat girl, a size 16. Please understand I use the word fat for what it is. A descriptive word. I am not offended by a mere adjective.  Twenty years ago that word crushed me, but it doesn't anymore.  Ask any toddler with the new-found skill to innocently describe people as they are. I am fat, not chunky, fluffy, squishy (well I am a little of that! Ha!) or any of the other "less offensive" adjectives. I don't get upset about words like that anymore. I am who I am.

That being said, I have always thought that I could not run. I have never been one to "run for fun." That phrase doesn't even make sense.  I have never believed that those words should ever be used together.

Society and media have shown me since I was young that fat people aren't supposed to run. Fat people aren't supposed to do a lot of things. Fat people aren't supposed to exercise in public. They are not supposed to eat unhealthy foods in public. They are not really supposed to eat in public at all. Fat people aren't supposed to wear clothes that are very revealing.

 Fat girls are not supposed to wear string bikinis (just kidding! I don't think I should wear string bikinis either-  just checking to see if you're paying attention 😁) Fat people aren't supposed to do so many things. Especially running.

But here I am on day 12 of the 30 day running streak challenge.  Society has always taught me that I am not supposed to run. Maybe it's because I've always been overweight. Maybe it's because I was blessed by becoming top-heavy at the age of 12. Maybe it's because I've never had the self-confidence due to being overweight and the cruelty of others that comes with that.  Maybe it's because  I developed excruciating back pain at 27 and had back surgery at 30. Don't get me wrong; I'm not unhealthy but I'm definitely not fit.  

Yet after watching a co-worker and other friends on social media, I decided I could run a mile every day for 30 days, or at least work up to that.  Guess what happened!  On day 8 I was able to jog one mile without stopping.  Me! The one who fell and severely sprained her ankle a few years ago.  The same one who has neuropathy in the right leg from years of a pinched sciatic nerve.  Me- the one who has never been thin- the one who is a size 16. Me- who I can now call a runner.

I have begun to look forward to my run each day.  I feel like the personal development that my home- based business wants me to do to make myself a better version of me is giving me strength.  I am better able to use negative energy as fuel toward pursuing a positive goal.  EHT has cleared my brain fog.  I have always been one who has difficulty staying on task or topic.  Since I began taking EHT about 5 months ago, my brain has become better organized.  It's a drug free supplement that contains a caffeine-free molecule from coffee.  BSCG certified drug free, and discovered in Princeton labs by Dr. Stock.  Watch a 2 minute video here that explains the science: EHT- Anti-Aging for the Brain  It has helped me focus on and stick to a goal.  I have been able to quiet that inner voice of doubt that always tells me I will never reach my goal.  My thinking comes from that Slight Edge philosophy that little things we do every day seem insignificant, but over time they all add up.

This has not been an easy road so far.  The first four days of the challenge I was barely able to descend or climb stairs.  I did it anyway and avoided the elevator.

 I have been ill the last few days.  Throbbing headache, fever, and ear pain accompanied the general feeling of malaise.  I ran anyway, or did what I could, still completing at least a mile.  I am not even halfway there yet.  I hear thunder outside as I type.  Bring on the challenge!

Check out the site for more info about EHT.

Husbands are like Pancakes

Husbands are like What?

     For the readers that don't know me very well, I have worked at a hospital for a little over 10 years now.  My inner being has been permanently impressed upon by many people I have met through those years.  

     Most of those have been elderly or middle aged, and the wealth of history and wisdom I have had before my eyes always amazes me.  Along with the history and wisdom, some of those unforgettable people have left me with their own advice that has been learned through their years.  

  An elderly female patient told me one time,"husbands are like pancakes."      Immediately my brain began to search for ways that husbands are similar to pancakes.  Ummm?  Hmmm.  That is the great part of working with elderly patients.  They make your brain think in ways it wouldn't normally think.  

   Then she explained.  This sweet lady had been married once before.  She was extremely happy with her second marriage, which was the complete opposite of the first one.

    "Husbands are like pancakes," she said.  "You never keep the first one.  They are usually flat or uneven."   And I immediately understood & laughed and laughed.  Truth isn't always painful.  Sometimes it's just hilarious.  

Start Preparing for the Wedding

     Here we are on Friday.  The weeks fly by and soon the time for wedding bells has arrived- wedding bells that have thousands of photos secretly attached to them.  Those same photos will be around a lot longer than we will.

   Whether you are the bride-to-be, the groom, the mother of the bride or groom, the father, bridesmaid, or anyone else in the wedding party, start preparing now.  

  No needles, nothing to roll into your skin.  No harmful chemicals....Did I mention no harmful chemicals?
    You don't get a second chance for original wedding photos (at least not with the same person :)).  

Don't be the manic bride!

While looking through free clip art I found this one called "manic bride," & I thought about how perfect it is in relation to this topic.  We all become manic & frantic when we realize how quickly the date is approaching, and how quickly we will be the center of attention.  Even if we are not the bride, when we haven't taken the time to prepare we start thinking about all of the eyes that will be on us..
    And all that crazy you see in the eyes of "manic bride" becomes your own perception of reality.  Look at what you can do for yourself to prepare!

Real Results Videos- Hear from someone in your age range.

Start working on those legs!  Exercise can only do so much!

When you have spent a lifetime doing things for others, this is the least you can do for yourself.  

Get rid of the appearance of all that saggy skin.  Gravity is real.

Make pictures memorable, but for all the right reasons.

 I am so thankful Nerium found me.  Here is one more:

The pic on the left was taken in May of 2015.  The pic on the right was taken August 2016.

I use these things every day.  The earth has many more accidental discoveries waiting for us.

Don't count fluffy sheep- count the silver linings on all those fluffy thunderclouds.

            The last couple of years have been quite interesting with the thunderstorms of life popping up all over.  We all have those circumstances in which we feel helpless, or such a sense of loss of control that we almost shut down mentally.  Learning how to grab the reigns and hold on tighter is one of the hardest lessons life forces upon us.  I've often wondered why some people seem so well equipped to deal with traumatic experiences while others seem to melt down. 


        If we have not allowed our inner selves to become hardened emotionally, we will all at one point or another become so distraught that we feel hopeless.  Picking ourselves up and putting our own pieces of ourselves back together again is the main occurrence that decides our ultimate futures. To help your mentality focus on the positive:

•    Go to sleep at night thinking about all you have to be thankful for.  Don't count fluffy sheep- count the silver linings on all those fluffy thunderclouds.
•    Wake up thinking about those same silver linings, not dreading what feels like the inevitable thunderstorm. 
  
  
  
•    If your brain has difficulty waking up and thinking about the good things life has for you, write a couple of things down on paper and have them in direct site for when your eyes open to greet the day. 
  
•    Waking up can be one of the things for which you are thankful- so can a friend or family member, a furry friend, or an opportunity to do things differently today than you did yesterday.
  
•    Remember that a habit, even a good one like training your brain to gravitate toward being thankful, takes 21+ days to actually become a habit. 

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